Thursday, January 27, 2011
Nothing to say?
I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes. ~e.e. cummings
Whenever I start to write anything, I notice two voices speaking at once. The one that says, yes this feeling is true, someone will relate to this, you have something to offer. And then there is the other rising up simultaneously.....Oh that will never do, you really have nothing to say today, who do you think you are, the nerve....what do you think you are, an authority? You are really making a fool of yourself with that one.....Then I remember, if God is moving in my life, there is always something to say. If I am alive, that is reason enough to write about it!
I look at this picture above and wonder who chopped that wood, and then I think of the time my Dad and I stacked wood together. Every now and then he reminds me of it. I look at the photographer's name, Brunhilde Reinig and I hear my Grandmother's voice speaking in German to her sisters, I remember that I love you in German is Ich Leibe Dich......and I wish that could have been said and done, instead of the Holocaust and I wonder again how it could have happened. I think of the German speaking people who did good, who hid Jews at the risk of their own lives.....
I think of the trip to the grocery store yesterday with my best friend and her Mom who is suffering with Alzheimer's. It was sad, it was tragic, and yet there were some humorous moments. She always has to get three items no matter what....potatoes, ice-cream and hamburger.....And we always have to go in the same door. And she gets insulted if you tell her to make a list. My friend tells me even when she was in her right mind she was insulted if you suggested a list. Funny how disease touches some parts and leaves some parts untouched......
I think of she and her brother, each of whom have grieved both parents already, neither one are the person they were before. I think of the many divorced people out there who are grieving walking dead.....dead to them anyway. What heartache they carry. I think of how wonderful it is that little green shoots of love can bloom again in that same heart......love born again.
Yes, as long as there is life, there are words to say.
As long as there is God, there is Spirit movement......and hope.
http://www.publicdomainpictures.net/ by Brunhilde Reinig