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Hey everyone! I am over<a href="http://www.lorisprayercloset.com/"> here</a>. Please come visit me at Wordpress site.......it is slowly evolving into something. Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-64324559042794170052012-12-13T11:10:00.001-08:002012-12-13T11:10:16.133-08:00When heavy hearts give thanks<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<strong>Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus......1 Thessalonians 5:18</strong><br />
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I have misheard and misunderstood this Scripture and caused myself much grief, packing a load on myself I was never meant to carry. I have had to remind myself that it doesn't say to be thankful FOR for circumstance, but IN the circumstance. So today, I offer up thanks to a God who is worthy of all my gratitude, all the time. <br />
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Thank you Lord that even when our hearts are hurting, the fountain of thankfulness still somehow keeps bubbling up. I woke up at around 2:30 and the first thing that popped into my mind was the line to the song that says: <br />
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Oh no, you never let go, through the calm and through the storm.......<br />
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Thank you for the twinkling lights outside my window for they remind me of what and who I am celebrating, and for the love of a friend who put them up when I know that all she wanted to do was put this Christmas on fast forward.....not the reason of it, for that she clings to, but all the stuff that goes along with it. <br />
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In her loss this season she still thinks of how she can make others happy, so she put the timer on so that I would see them when I left for work. That kind of heart is what makes the Lord happy. <br />
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That king of gratitude when it isn't easy is like shaking our fist in Satan's face. <br />
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Thank you Lord, for an Aunt who calls me even when she is going through her own kind of loss this year once again with her husband in a rest home....she misses her old life, but still she waves the flag of gratitude because she has her health and that she can see him each day. <br />
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And most of the time, he is in a good mood. <br />
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Thank you Lord, for the classical station that actually came in this morning as I was driving to work. Those notes filled out a hollowed out place in my soul that I didn't realize was there until I heard it. It lifted me, made me better somehow. I believe that's what good music should do. <br />
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And thank you that things at work are relatively calm right now. We are in between processes and winding down so I can have time to relax at my station and I really need that right now. <br />
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I feel fatigued today, Lord. I need those wings of eagles to lift me up.....in fact I can feel them now. I already feel better. And send a big eagle for Elaine. She needs one worse.<br />
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Sincerely, your girl. <br />
Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-29814054106754283892012-12-08T07:36:00.000-08:002012-12-08T07:36:02.009-08:00I may as well be a leperI see the look on their faces when I answer their question, “Where did you go to school?” Meaning college of course. Inwardly, I look down in shame, scuff my feet and blush crimson. “I don’t have a degree.” There is usually an awkward pause, “Oh……” I can imagine what they are thinking. They wonder how I managed to finagle a job here at Intel. One of the places where education is held in very high esteem, in fact, you can’t get hired here now without a degree. But back when I was hired, you could. And I did.<br />
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And now it’s seventeen years later…..and I sometimes think, I wonder when they will catch on and fire me. <br />
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And I always have to qualify it with something, like…”But I have had SOME college.” And I have, and I really liked it. My first course I got an A. I was so proud of that, I can still remember the feeling I had when I went to the board and saw it posted there. By MY name. A few years ago I took English 102 and I was sure the teacher’s main objective was to make my experience as miserable as possible. And I like English.<br />
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It was a battle, but I passed with a B and I think it killed her to give it to me.<br />
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I get the same feeling when people ask me if I have kids or….. Ahem….. grand kids, now that I am older. I feel somewhat branded by a sense of shame, like they will automatically think I don’t like kids. Nothing could be further from the truth. I have a niece who I would jump in front of a truck for anytime, anywhere.<br />
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Note: If you feel shame today that is either self imposed or pushed on you by someone else, either intentionally or otherwise, know that it’s from Satan. Jesus died and rose again to release us from that. <br />
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And really, people just want to understand. It’s easier to put people in a box and classify them. It’s too confusing for them otherwise. It complicates things. People don’t want to spend too much time figuring people out. And I really don’t blame them, I’m the same way. I like things simple.<br />
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So here’s the deal:<br />
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I don’t have a wonderful husband with three beautiful children, although if you do I think it’s wonderful. I believe healthy marriages and families make a strong and happy society. I believe in family values more than anyone I know.<br />
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I don’t have a degree of higher learning, although I think education is wonderful. If you are going for it, I am a little bit jealous and I wish I would have done it.<br />
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I do, however, have a wonderful home and a God who loves me and accepts me just as I am. I have lots of love in my life, including that of my family and a best friend and soul sister who I know would give her life for me without a thought. We do live in the same house, but we are not gay for those who may have wondered. Seinfeld moment here, let the reader understand if they have seen the episode. <br />
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I am a living testimony of a Mom who always said she didn’t care how far I went in school as long as I had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, and for that I will be forever grateful.<br />
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My life is a living testimony of God’s provision and care because when my brand new husband died, God came near and never left my side by surrounding me with people who refused to let me go.<br />
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As I get older I get a bit wiser. I have learned to care more about what God thinks of me than strangers. I rest in the people who know me and love me, and when it comes right down to it, people are really too concerned about their own lives to pay too much attention to what’s going on in mine or yours.<br />
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Bein real today.Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-27700666838716003712012-12-07T04:59:00.002-08:002012-12-07T04:59:52.778-08:00A fire engine for Christmas<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<strong>The wind blows wherever it wants. Just as you can hear the wind but can’t tell where it comes from or where it is going, so you can’t explain how people are born of the Spirit.” John 4:6</strong><br />
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<br />Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-42152385256174593692012-12-03T06:13:00.002-08:002012-12-03T06:13:16.961-08:00Of Christmas trees and such......<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-73384587768468773992012-12-01T06:52:00.002-08:002012-12-01T06:52:57.420-08:00Just Believe<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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What is it about Christmas that has the power to evoke the tenderest of memories, our deepest longings, the faint possibility of hope when all seems dark? Come with me <a href="http://lorisprayercloset.com/2012/12/01/just-believe/">here</a> for the rest......</div>
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<span class="versetext" id="jer2-25" style="display: inline;"><span style="font-size: large;">"Slow down. Take a deep breath. What's the hurry? Why wear yourself out? Just what are you after anyway? But you say, 'I can't help it. I'm addicted to alien gods. I can't quit.' Jeremiah 2:25</span></span><br />
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<span class="versetext" style="display: inline;">Every year it happens. Either I am driving on the freeway or in a store and there will be a moment when I make a conscious decision not to join in the madness that seems to be picking up tempo all around me. </span><br />
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<span class="versetext" style="display: inline;">My heart beat slows.... I take a step back. It happened this past weekend when I was driving on the freeway and I had to slam on my brakes because people were driving even crazier than usual. I realized the fever pitch had started.<em> <strong>Speed bump number one. </strong></em></span><br />
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<span class="versetext" style="display: inline;">Then at the Mall, it happened again when I saw Santa's Village already set up taking pictures of the kids. I don't remember them starting that early last year. I saw Santa sprawled spread eagle in the chair looking bored to tears while the "elves" were like circus barkers trolling for customers. Really? I asked the same question I ask myself each year. </span><br />
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<span class="versetext" style="display: inline;">Don't get me wrong, nobody loves Christmas more than I do. I totally get into decorating the house and doing the baking, and I do love to buy gifts, but I don't go crazy. </span><span class="versetext" style="display: inline;">And I will deck the halls and love every minute of it. There will be a tree in every room. In my bedroom, the tabletop Victorian, and in the office, the Southwestern tree. And Elaine has an ocean tree, decorated with while lights, mermaids, and shells. </span><br />
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<span class="versetext" style="display: inline;">And in the kitchen, a tiny tree with plastic snowmen and snowflakes and other Christmasey type things. Have to be careful with that one, the lights are old and very hot and if it fell next to something flammable it would be a tiki torch in no time. </span><br />
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As I went about from window to window the other night closing the house up, my heart was seized with gratitude.....of having a home to come to, a warm place and a refuge from the noisy world. "Why me?" I thought, "when so many others have no home, no place to go?" Safety for them is a far-off dream, something other people have. <br />
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<em>I could have been born any place at all but I was born here in America. The land of blessing. </em><br />
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And when that terrible thing happened He wasn't looking the other way. <br />
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And if you want to hear the best answer to a question I have heard so many people ask when prayers don't go their way? You really need to go here and read this gem, <a href="http://www.prodigalmagazine.com/contentment/">by Duane Scott. </a><br />
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The thing that causes hearts to go darker than anything else is <em>Lack of gratitude</em>........"<span class="text Rom-1-21" id="en-NIV-27952">For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God <strong>nor gave thanks to him</strong>, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Romans 1:21<sup class="crossreference" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-27952A" title="See cross-reference A">A</a>)"></sup></span><br />
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And today, I am also linking up with Ann at <a href="http://www.aholyexperience.com/2012/11/the-one-holiday-that-god-demands-is-all-of-our-days/">Holy Experience</a> because she is the one that actually got me started with writing my gratitude down on paper and teaching me a new way to see. <br />
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<em>Grateful for my home each and every day.......and that I have a job so I can help others.....for laughter in church.....friends at work who are like lights in the darkness......fixed cars that run like tops......thankful the driver behind me the other night was paying attention when the whole freeway stopped......formerly unknown people who I now count as dear friends thanks to FB, yes, FB.....pumpkin pie for breakfast......steaming cups of comfort to wrap hands around....being totally lazy on a day off.....a great day yesterday. #945-956</em><br />
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And for a great way you can build hope for children in Haiti, click on the Help One Now button on my sidebar, where just a little can go a long way. Blessings my friends, Lori<br />
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"I am doing a new thing with Lauryn now before she goes to her class," my Mom said. "I lay my hands on her and pray a little blessing." She saw someone do this on one of her Sunday morning shows. "I thought, why not do it for her." So now right before she slings on her backpack and heads off to join her friends, my Mom holds both hands on a very fidgety child and says: </div>
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She went on to say that the first time she did it, she was wiggling around a lot, wondering what she was doing. "But now," she says, "She expects it, and I think she likes it a little." I verified this with my own eyes when I was there. She got this little mischievous smile that I caught on camera right after the prayer. </div>
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My Mom paused in her activity and said........"Do you remember how you and I prayed before school by the fire?" Of course I do. I told her I blogged about probably more than once, and I know I have thanked her more than once too. </div>
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How could I ever forget those times? Just she and I in the warm glow of the firelight. She praying for a very unhappy teen aged daughter because she just didn't know what else to do. I can still hear how she sounded, and feel her work-worn hands of love in mine. It makes me want to cry for the gratitude of her. </div>
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I have also been mad at the "blogger" platform. Different reasons. All of a sudden my playlist didn't work. It won't start playing right when you open my blog. I thought I had it set up to do so, but I still can't get it to work right. </div>
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Only three reasons, but they are big ones. <strong>God, the Word, and You the readers. </strong></div>
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And I realized another thing. My little voice means something, and so does yours. </div>
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This year has been tough, and it still is. Going on two years of care taking and it takes its toll no doubt about it. But Elaine and I are still laughing despite the circumstances. And now I am going through some other things personally, physical changes which I have talked about<a href="http://www.lorisprayercloset.blogspot.com/2012/11/two-to-car.html"> here. </a></div>
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And even when the moods are incredibly dark? The amazing thing is that at unexpected moments I have this <span style="font-size: large;">absurd joy. </span><span style="font-size: small;">It just won't stop, because God has me. And He has you too, no matter what else is going on in your life. </span>Because each and every one of us has circumstances we have to deal with. Those will never go away. </div>
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That, my friends is my main message. And this morning, as if to highlight what I was feeling, this song came on and it said: <strong>Let my life song sing to you.</strong> </div>
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<strong>“If you’re really looking for answers, look past me. But if you’re interested in how I got to where I am, I will be as honest as possible.”<br />– Rich Mullins</strong></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Dear readers, I treasure you.....I am taking a short blogging break. I will be back soon, I promise. Feel free to browse through the archives! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"></span>Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-53602099766266736282012-11-12T10:06:00.000-08:002012-11-12T20:35:33.836-08:00Two to a car<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<strong>But You, O <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>, <i>are</i> a shield for me, <span class="text Ps-3-3">My glory and the <span style="font-size: large;">One who lifts up my head</span>. </span><span class="text Ps-3-4" id="en-NKJV-13962">I cried to the <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span> with my voice, </span><span class="text Ps-3-4">And He heard me from His holy hill. </span><span class="text Ps-3-4">Psalm 3:3,4</span></strong></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">This morning I went out to pray like a monk, I was glad there was a hood on my sweatshirt, because all of a sudden it has turned cold.....cold for here anyway. As I lit my "prayer lantern" I sank into my chair and bowed my head. There are so many things I am thankful for, why do I feel such despair at times? I have a good job and people who love me. I am doing some writing and there are actually people who get something out of what I write. I am constantly surprised by joy over that. </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">But there is another thing I have been fighting, and it's a big one. I hesitate to even write about it because I don't think I can put it into words. And yet I must because writing is my way out....my way up. </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">I've been fighting this thing. It's called "The Change." There is a reason they call it that. I wondered and wondered why I have felt this way and it suddenly hit me. </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4"><strong><em>I am grieving. Grieving who I was before.</em></strong> </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">Who has taken my old happy life and what have they done with it? </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">As it hit me, tears gushed. And part of it was the relief of knowing. The other part is the not knowing. I don't know what waits on the other side of this tunnel. Every now and again normalcy touches down and I breathe a sigh of relief. </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">My faith holds me now. I howl like a wounded animal on the inside because I don't want anyone to hear. </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4"><em><strong>I walk down the Christmas aisles at the store and I want to cry. Pumpkin pie filling makes me cry. People being kind to me makes me cry.</strong></em> </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">I drive on the freeway and I feel the white heat of anger lashing out. I call unsuspecting people all kinds of names they don't deserve. They are just trying to get home, after all. </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">I am losing what I fought so hard to get back when I starved myself. The part of me that was always a reminder of health.....possibility....promise....life. </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">How do you let go of something you have had all your life? And who will I be on the other side of this.....will it make me less than I am right now? </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4"><em>How do you go about going through a change that will usher in the last phase of your life, especially when you still wear Miss Me jeans and buy your clothes in the junior section? </em></span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">I got up and wiped my nose on my sleeve. And God gave me something, just a little vision of hope. I was sitting on the little train I used to ride at the Santa Cruz beach boardwalk. It was two to a car....And in the seat beside me: <strong>Jesus rode.</strong> </span></div>
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<span class="text Ps-3-4">And He promised he would be with me all the way through. And I know He will, He's a man of His word. <em>Yes, there is much comfort in two to a car.</em></span></div>
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Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-27391175148318582132012-11-10T07:01:00.000-08:002012-11-10T07:52:24.637-08:00(Re)acknowleging my Desperation<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Today, Lord I acknowledge my desperate state before you. Anything less means I am walking around in a state of delusion. When things are going well, it is so easy for me to think I have things under control. That I don't need you quite as bad as when circumstances are:</div>
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<em>unpleasant, painful, spiraling out of control.............</em>But the truth is, I need you just as much and in just the same measure <span style="font-size: large;">every single day.</span> </div>
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Sometimes I act like a person holding up a golf club in the middle of a lightning storm. I flirt with the world, I skate on the edge, I get too close to swinging the doors wide open that should remain closed.</div>
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And I shouldn't. Forgive me, precious Lord. Thank you for remembering my dust. Help me to never take advantage of your good grace. I acknowledge again that though you are completely Holy, you are not waiting up there to strike me down when I fail, but waiting with an arms open kind of love. </div>
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And forgive me for asking you once again to deliver me from things you have already set me free from. Sometimes I have amnesia. You are infinite Love. I remember again and again the great length you went to save me. </div>
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<em>Goin back to the foot of the cross today. </em></div>
Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-82489854634624054882012-11-09T05:04:00.000-08:002012-11-09T05:06:04.471-08:00The Flip Side of Sadness<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Last night I had some company. First to show up in my dream was my cousin John with the crazy staccato laugh, huge heart and endless pranks. He and his brother George were always up to something. When they were little, they asked my Aunt Esther if they could decorate their rooms for Christmas. After she told them they could they scooped up buckets and bagfuls of brown pine needles and covered the floor and everything else in their room.....Join me <a href="http://bibledude.net/the-flip-side-of-sadness/">here</a> at Bibledude for the rest of the story.....<br />
Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-27345365078347006452012-11-07T07:45:00.000-08:002012-11-07T07:45:10.138-08:00Always is a good time to pray<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The ballots have been counted up and I am rejoicing in the fact that I will not have to watch any more campaign commercials. I won't deny that I am disappointed......but not in God. Never in God. On the way to work I heard a great praise song on the radio and I was able to pump my arms in the air (while I was stopped at the red light), and thank God that despite everything that happens in this life......<br />
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So now we get on to Kingdom work. I have no idea what the next four years will bring. All I know is that I hope that it will bring more people into God's kingdom. <br />
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And it is always a good time to pray, now more than ever. Even though the one I voted for won't be taking up a seat in the While House, I have to think back to the best and worst moments in my life and ask myself a question. With eternities values in view, how much does this really matter. <br />
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Right now today, if something happened to someone I love this little election and all my feelings about the next four years would cease to matter. We have very important things to do. And I was challenged by the <a href="http://www.internetmonk.com/">Internet Monk</a> today to pray for our President. <br />
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It might take some work, but I can do it.<em> Because he needs God just like everyone else. </em>Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-7085759818491499512012-11-06T06:24:00.000-08:002012-11-06T06:24:16.501-08:00Jesus wins by a landslide<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="text Rev-1-5">To him who loves us<sup> </sup>and has freed us from our sins by his blood,<sup> </sup></span><span class="text Rev-1-6" id="en-NIV-30704">and has made us to be a kingdom and priests<sup> </sup>to serve his God and Father—to him be glory and power for ever and ever! Amen.</span></div>
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<span class="text Rev-1-18"><span class="woj">Unless He is? None of this really matters. And I am thankful today. So thankful that I know who will write the end of this story. All over the world, people are doing great and courageous things. Pastors in <a href="http://www.helponenow.org/haiti-bloggers/">Haiti are caring for orphans</a>. Sleeping with them outside on the ground. </span></span><br />
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<em>Follow God’s example,<sup> </sup>therefore, as dearly loved children<sup> </sup><span class="text Eph-5-2" id="en-NIV-29307">and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us<sup> </sup>and gave himself up for us<sup> </sup>as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.</span> <span class="text Eph-5-3" id="en-NIV-29308">But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality,<sup> </sup>or of any kind of impurity, or of greed,<sup> </sup>because these are improper for God’s holy people. Ephesians 5:1-3</span></em><br />
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<span class="text Eph-5-3">Thankful today, for another chance at clean.......Yesterday Pastor Kevin continued in his series of "Living Under the Influence" of Christ. Handing there on the large wooden cross in the center of the stage, there was a beautiful white wedding dress. As he talked, and with every example of how we flirt with living back in the world, he gave the dress another brown splotch from the bottle he held. </span><br />
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<span class="text Eph-5-3">It hung there on that cross with ugly brown spots all over it and then we prayed, heads bowed, some going forward to kneel before that cross to get clean all over again. </span><br />
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<span class="text Eph-5-3">A few shy stars were out. The morning bird had not spoken yet, he was still sleepily blinking from his perch. The light from the sun was beginning to fill the sky and I realized that all over the world this pattern is repeated. </span><br />
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Thank you Lord, the new beginnings, and forgiveness.......<br />
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Counting my thanks........Lifting depression.....conversations that bring about healing....good work function outing yesterday.....health that allows me to do physical exercise which always makes me feel better......laughter sprinkled throughout every day, however hopeless it seems.......beautiful weather.....more great memories of back home......a brave girl who broke through her fear and participated in her school parade.....simple joys of washing and a washer that works.......clean bedding.....friends and family who make this life worth living and God who makes everything possible. #945-957<br />
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Linking up <a href="http://www.aholyexperience.com/">here with Ann</a> and below with Michelle today.<br />
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<span class="text Eph-5-3"></span><br />Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-5340301342447050582012-11-03T10:21:00.003-07:002012-11-03T10:21:48.589-07:00The God of all Comfort <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies<span style="font-size: large;"> and God of all comfort</span>, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ's sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. 2 Corinthians 1:3-5<br />
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How big is your God? I know my God is big......He is big enough to heal the deepest sorrow, and repair the most broken of hearts. I know because He's done it for me. <br />
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And even though He's big? He can make Himself show up in something as simple as a ray of light on the walkway because just now I asked Him to meet me there and He did, I felt Him there. I also prayed that He would meet you in my words. <br />
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<em> And how many have prayed for just that, and have not felt that assurance?</em> He rains His Grace down at unexpected moments. You may not always feel Him, but that doesn't mean He isn't there. <br />
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He always has to make room for faith to kick in. And faith is always rewarded my friends, that's a promise. <br />
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And the days when you know that prayer is the only thing holding you together? He knows that feeling too. He knows how it feels to not even want to be around a single solitary soul. Honestly, I think there were times He wanted to tell everyone to just go away. <em>Those are the times He went off alone to pray.</em> <br />
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He also knows that sometimes the best thing you can do for a friend is just hold them while they cry. Job's friends did that at first and then they blew it by starting to talk. There's a time for talking, and a time for just being there. <br />
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And no matter what you might be feeling now, you can still have hope. <em>God has an inexhaustible supply. </em><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">You can still have hope if you know God.</span> He is the God of all comfort. He knows how. When our words run dry and crackle in the air and fall flat.....The Holy Spirit speaks in groans deeper than any words straight to the Father. <br />
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I believe He is even better at translating the prayers that never make their way into words. <br />
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He's near. Nearer than your own breath. Lori Heydhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07800167686537384791noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7537771529061328043.post-89783523796575099222012-11-02T08:45:00.000-07:002012-11-02T08:45:12.316-07:00The Big Ticket <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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As we approach the ticket counter to US airways I am staggered at the amount of people in line. There are always a lot of people at the airport here in Phoenix since it is an international hub, but this......this is crazy. The line was so long they had to split it up into two groups, <em>parted like the red sea. </em><br />
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They were all wearing the same expressions of worry and anxiety, and now so was I. It dawned on us that this must be because of diverted flights due to Hurricane Sandy. Everyone was orderly and somewhat calm. TSA has effectively whipped us huddled masses into submission like recaltritant children. I looked at them all, jostling kids, bags, nerves, and me right among them. <br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><em>When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Matthew 9:36</em></span><br />
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I still had time, but would it be enough? We went out to curbside and there was a line but not nearly as bad. I bantered with two ladies going back home to Toronto about our general complaints of the airlines. How they are charging for every little thing.<br />
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I punched my confirmation number in the little space on the screen and my ticket was spit out the bottom. I clutched it as any apprehensive flyer does. It had my name on it, a little bit of peaceful assurance in a scrap of paper. My seat was 9F. <br />
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Upstairs it was more of the same. Everywhere, people scrambling to get home or leave home.The line was four deep going through security. I passed the Canadian ladies again. One of them asked, "How did you get ahead of us?" And we laughed. <br />
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I reached for the bin, filling it up with everything I could take off.....scarf, shoes, belt, metal jewelry, sweater. I was motioned into the infamous TSA scanner......<em>Arms up and hold please.</em> The evil scanner. Will I ever get used to this?<br />
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<em>Put my heart under Your scanner Lord. Tell me what I am doing wrong</em>....... "Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts" Psalm 139:23 <br />
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I thought of how at first, I had refused to fly. On justifiable grounds of gross invasion of privacy. Just the topic would sent me into a fit and quoting the first amendment. And now I just go through like everyone else. <em>Just one of the cattle.</em><br />
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I clutch my ticket, make all my calls, and settle in for the boarding announcement. I think of myself, one who dreams often of being in the wrong place, or late, or being six months behind for a class and realizing I have not turned in one assignment. Its always so important for me to be in the right place at the right time.<br />
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I scan my boarding pass for the 5th or sixth time, <em>noting the boarding time, the zone number. </em><br />
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I think about that other ticket, to that most important of places. The ticket I clutch even more tightly as the years go by, my Bible. <span style="font-size: large;">The Words of God. </span><span style="font-size: small;">That's one trip I want to be prepared for more than any other. The Holy Spirit is my deposit. I lean back in the seat and breathe deep. Thankful. </span><br />
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<em><strong>I won't be late because it's all in His timing.</strong></em> <br />
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".......and he has identified us as his own by placing the Holy Spirit in our hearts as the first installment that guarantees everything he has promised us." 2 Corinthians 1:22<br />
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