It always amazes me that I can find a Bible verse that applies to each and every situation. I was up once again at 2:00 AM. I was also up yesterday morning at around the same time. I scared Elaine to death because she thought she was being really quiet when she snuck into my bathroom at 2:30 and I said, "What you doing?" She almost jumped out of her skin. She was trying not to wake me but no worries there. She was really trying not to wake her Mom on the other side of the house. You learn with an Alzheimer's patient, you do anything in the world not to wake them at night.
Elaine has spent many hours awake since her Mom took over her bedroom. She now sleeps in the Arizona room which has walls and a ceiling but not much in the way of insulation. It is like sleeping by the Indianapolis Speedway. People drag up and down the street all hours of the night. She has a radio on at all times to mask the noise and her tinnitus.
I couldn't believe I was up once again this morning, tossing and turning. My thoughts were like fireworks going off in my head. The more I thought about getting up at 4, the wider-awake I remained. I prayed.....I recited the 23rd Psalm which usually works like a tonic. Not this time.
I dreamt of that blessed blessed sleep that comes. The Bible calls it "sweet sleep."
I finally got it at around 3:30. Right before the alarm went off. I got up and started the coffee and layed back down for a few minutes. As I sat blinking, fuzzy-headed, sipping my first cup, the chorus of an old hymn was playing through my mind and it comforted me.......
Jesus is tenderly calling me home
Calling today, calling today
Why from the sunshine of love will thou roam
Farther and farther away?
Calling today, calling today
Jesus is calling, is tenderly calling today.
Jesus is calling the weary to rest
Calling today, calling today
Bring Him thy burden and thou shalt be blessed
He will not turn thee away.
I looked it up just now.......Turns out it is an old Jim Reeves song, lyrics written by Fanny Crosby.
I was thankful once again, that I was raised singing those old hymns.....I love the modern praise songs, but somehow when one of these slips quietly into my mind, I feel a peace like no other. I think of my heritage, my Grandparents, all my Grandmother's sisters, and I really feel they are cheering me on from Heaven.
I can do this thing.
Oh sweetie, I hate it that you have that insominia. It's like we get in this pattern and can't alter it --- it's miserable because when I lie there, my rolodex begins to spin....
ReplyDeleteI love that song -- as I love old hymns. I read in a book recently about the song, "Day is Done." I had totally forgotten it -- I'm afraid the next generation will not know them at all.
At my BSF, we sang, "Lamb of God, I come, I come." It brought me to tears.
Good post.
should have check that before I hit publish
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Argh.
I've got it too, and I wake up right around the same time...my sleep is broken each night, but I have the luxury of working at home-so it's okay.
ReplyDeleteLove the old hymns too...
Hey all, don't feel too bad for me, I usually catch up sleep when I am off work on my days off....I really bad for the people who can never sleep ;-) Lori
ReplyDeleteI like the verses that say He speaks in the night watches and that He gives wisdom in the night. A good night's sleep is so appreciated though.
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely....had a great nights sleep last night, unlike the two nights before!
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